Four Months Old

Ezekiel is four months old! He is becoming more and more of a real person. This month has brought lots of changes, but he is also learning so much. Ezekiel started the month out learning to be apart from mom and dad everyday. 

I went back to work! I have enjoyed being back. Managing pumping is tough, but I’m glad to be working again. The hardest part is how little time there is in the evenings. By the time I pick up Ezekiel and get home, it is often 6pm. Then I have to get all the pump parts and bottles ready to be washed and get his milk ready for the next day. I made dinner, eat, and feed Ezekiel a couple times. Then there is maybe 30 minutes to play with Ezekiel before he falls asleep early or I try to get him ready for bed with a book and nursing around 8pm. After he is asleep, I get ready for bed because it’s tiring being up with him several times a night. Then my alarm goes off at 6am to do it all over again since it’s tough juggling getting myself ready, Ezekiel ready, and getting out the door early enough to get him dropped off and get to work. Balancing everything has resulted in a few tearful nights of being overwhelmed and some great support from my rockstar husband who helps in anyway he can. The thing that has been most helpful is remembering that everyday is different. Ezekiel wakes up talking loudly at 4am because he wants to be awake – it’s not a sign of things to come; it’s just a hard night. He might awake up a million times one night and then sleep 3-4 hour chunks the next night. We all are taking it day by day. 

Ezekiel has spent the month with grandpa (my stepdad). He has been learning the routine well. He enjoys the activity mat and playing on the floor. He had a couple special days with grandma too. 

Ezekiel has grown so much and learned a lot of new things. He is talking a ton now (and very loudly)! He smiles more and his laughs are the best. He grabs and holds toys, especially balls. He concentrates hard to reach out and grab things in front of him. He can pick things up with one hand and transfer it to the other. He learned how to kick his feet in his bouncer in order to make his toys move when he couldn’t quite reach them at first. He is much more interested in his books now and stares intently at the pages. And a few days ago he learned to roll from his back to his belly. In the past few days he has been perfecting his new skill and has been rolling back and forth. 

Ezekiel had fun meeting family at Christmas. He got to meet Santa, spent time with family, and was gifted some fun toys. 

The month ahead include Communication Junction Sign and Play sign language classes. We are all looking forward to Ezekiel being able to tell us what he needs before he can talk. 

Today is also the one year anniversary of when I found out I was pregnant with him. It was a whirlwind of a day. I was so nervous, but it all felt so different. I was at a different ob/gyn practice, so this time I did not know what to expect. With the holiday, things were more complicated. I had originally called the office when they opened, but they still had their phones off, so I figured they were closed. I ended up calling back a few times, and they ended up being open for half the day. The nurse called me back and was able to put in an order to test my pregnancy hormone levels. I was able to get that done, but wouldn’t find out the results until after the new year where I would then repeat the tests several more times (and then every two weeks throughout the pregnancy) and start progesterone. It was a long several weeks before we ended up hearing Ezekiel’s heart beat. 

It is weird to think back on that time a year ago. My whole life for a few years was about getting pregnant. It was the cause of many stressful and tearful nights. It resulted in so much stress between Bryan and me. And now that Ezekiel is here, I never want to go back to that season of life. Instead I honor that time and remember my angel babies. Ezekiel, it was an insane ride to get to your birth, and you are so incredibly wanted, wished for, hoped for, and loved. Happy four months!

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